Beginning of something new

There are so many events that happend to me, that i don't know from what to start:)
Some of them were so difficult to percieve and totally smashed my plans, that i couldn't put everything together, some of them were unbelievebly positive and good. Why happens so, that i notice my life only now?

He-he, it's so nice to see my inner transformations. But my dream is to see their transformation and their enjoying each moment of work and life together in one team. Sometimes it's so difficult for me to convince them, to push for actions, motivate for achieving and enjoying, that i'm totally scared how to do it!!! and truly to say sometimes І feel lost of how to do it.
Sometimes i feel that there are nobo imabdy to support me, but then i realize that there're a lot of people whom i need just to recognize and they'll do their best. Sometimes i can't understand people that seemed to be friends, and now are ready to push me and can't accept my ideas, my worldview, people that were role-models for me, but then i realize that it shouldn't be an obstacle for me, and obstacles are only steps to become wiser and stronger.

In 1,5 hour i start a term of LCP. I don't how it will look like, i know that all plans will look differently from what i was imagening, i know it will be difficultly, i know there will be moments that will make me cry. BUT i'm sure it'll be amazing.