Now is late evening and i stay in my coach LC Mariupol. And feel that i need to post my thoughts here. I spent here one week, coaching EB team, meeting OCPs and members, and i really got inspired by the things we put and plannned here. I missed this feeling of seeing AIESEC alive and watching how people are living it. During this week i had different emotions: felt totally frustrated and dismotivated, and now i really dream this LC becomes strong and overcomes every obstacle that exists and just becomes the best! I want to see all our efforts didn't go in vain and somehow we changed the system that existed.

During these days i was thinking a lot about my relationship and personal life. I was and keep asking the main question: should close people support your important decisions and love the things you do? Because i believe it's yes, and we can't call it selfishness. And this should understood and carried by all parts. What do you think, dear friends?

*** Осінь в Києві така тепла і справжня. Не можу налюбуватись погодою, свіжістю, відсутністю спеки. Намагаюсь усіма силами звикнути до теперішнього життя, не можу відпустити спогади, події, просто все, що пов*язано з домом.

*** Тепер у мене безліч часу читати, думати багато, ділитись думками, подорожувати Україною! Саме за такі моменти буду вдячна організації завжди.

What happened during these months:

· IC in India

People from other countries, new friends and colleagues, realizing the potential of AIESEC in Ukraine and how proud I am to be a part of it. Right conference with right expectations.

This video touched me a lot during the closing of the conference:

· India

Incredible country, warm and kind people, who are proud of India and happy to have what they have. I was comparing it a lot with Ukraine and how Ukrainians live and realized,we have so many things to be learned, and first thing is to be proud and honored by our nation and value it. Indians feel totally happy and proud of their contry, they mention about it as a phenomenum and make everything to amke their life happier and better. This is what we don't have in Ukraine, as we always keep on regretting and complaining about our conditions, history and bad luck.

· Autumn Conference in Franik and team days after

Controversial feelings and emotions, thoughts about future, important talks. & decisions. Team days with valuable and needed feedback to each other, sharing and open conversation which helps to unleash emotions and answer the needed questions.

I feel happy and thankful to what I have in my life, with which people I work and live, what I face and experience. I am sure everything happens for purpose, because of our choice. So, my choice is done, and i'm so thankful to people who are with me and support me in this

HOW - questions

I have many questions in my head, caused by the recent events:

* how to motivate people and think in another way, in a different one, because the one's that they used doesn't work anymore?

* how to remain devoted inspite everything and not hurt feelings?

* how to keep friendship and friends that you love, despite all the past memories?

* how to say right words to the right person. and how to know this person is right for you?

Searching for the answers, please, help me!

My LC was awarded. It's a great feeling. And it's not about the award, believe me. It's about dream your LC be recognized as one of the best among other LCs which are also strong. It's about looking for its name and being proud of each small success, just everything that members achieve, what you team does.


The year of LCP proved to me 2 very-very important things:
1. Everything can be achieved - all we need is a strong belief
2. There can only be one solution to any problem: a change in attitude and in consciousness (c)

And i feel so happy that with my EB team we're at the stage of friendship... Just as i wished at the very beginning.

time at 2 conferences was so cool!!! I lived it as in a dream

У мене просто неймовірні подарунки долі, які вчать мене, щиро сподіваюсь, що змінюють на краще. Які саме? Вона мене постійно зводить з людьми, які потрібні саме у цей момент. Так, мене зараз знову оточили люди, які стануть ще однією частиною мого життя

**** І я вірю, все, що стається з нами - все правильно, все так, як має бути. Все дуже-дуже правильно.

*** Я багато чого не встигаю, не можу знайти балансу в житті і закохатись, не знаю, чого хочу доясягти, сумую за домом, сестрою


все побігла я

Коли ти в AIESEC, коли у тебе всього лише рік, то насправді починаєш цінувати кожну хвилину

first days in MC of Ukraine

First days in MC and new team were so cool, i couldn't expect them to be so! It's difficult to live in Kyiv and in a big city after so comfortable times in Ivano-Frankivsk with friends and close people, but our friendly team and challenging job description motivate me and drive my learning and performance. Yeah, i realized how much should i learn and get in order to make OGX the best direction and for AIESEC in Ukraine reach goals in OGX. I want to have strenghth and act with responsibility that can help me to do my best.
Sometimes my memories about my home and everybody who stay here touch me and i can't overcome my emotions, that's why i feel happy when i have chance to speak with my EB team, members, parents, sister, grandmother. I didn't know that i feel so connected with all of them.
I know that this new year will pas just in 1 glance, that's why i want to make the best out of it: want to read a lot, speak with teammates, learn a lot, and, yes, i also decided to start Spanish classes from autumn with Lara and will practice it with Joaco. I want to make really unbelievable and make it my lifememory.
100% of commitment + 100% of happiness

Sound of water

Can you feel the water? When you're near the sea, river or ocean - what do you feel? I just can't resist my excitment, relief and happiness when i'm near the water... It's funny, i know, but i discovered it just a few days ago, recollecting in my mind my state when i was near the Atlantic Ocean this autumn. I felt so free and happy there, forgot about all troubles there, wanted to jump, swim and stay there as much as i can.
This spring during MC visit in Mariupol when Ania's parents took me to the sea, i felt the same. I was going in the water and felt so free... I just can't describe it
My region is totally covered with mountains, and almost all my friends would chose to go the mountains, except me:)
And i decided to myself to live some time near the ocean or see in my future

Ліна Костенко

Прощай, прощай, чужа мені людино!

Ще не було ріднішого, як ти.

Оце і є той випадок єдиний,

коли найбільша мужність - утекти.

"Ти дивишся. А я вже - як на трапі"

Я не покличу щастя не моє.

Луна луни туди не долітає.

Я думаю про Вас. Я знаю, що Ви є.

Моя душа й від цього вже світає.

"Не знаю, чи побачу Вас, чи ні..."

Completed my personal assessment, and the results truly correspond to me now :)

Thanks to my LCP term i became more enterpreneurial, but remained proactive learner. I'm 100% happy that my MC VP postion is the one to have truly global mindset.
Emotional intelligence was always my weak sides, and i really want to learn it and become emotionally stronger.

And what are your top competencies, i'm very eager to know, my dear friends

If you're already a part of memories, why do i think about you and can't get you out of my heart? On my bookshelf not finished 'Shantaram' is also the memory... Time will cure everything, i know, but when? When will be time when i'll call you friend and ask how are u there and when will you come back? Just to be sure that you're ok and your life is also great, because you're my friend. I want to start and keep our friendship.
What's actually happening with me these days: unproductive, not concentrated and with pessimistic thoughts?

люблю...

...коли є час і можна багато подумати і помріяти

....коли велика чашка гарячого чаю з бергамотом стоїть біля мене на робочому столі

.... свій борд - за те, що вони так мені помагають і ми разом віримо, що Франік таки буде найкращим!

....розмови з Кальосіком про все на світі і те, що вона навчила мене бути відкритою

...переглядати улюблені моменти улюблених фільмів і перечитувати абзаци книг, які я люблю

... бути в книжковому магазині і дивитись довго на книги

.... від душі сміятись

.... повертатись додому після конференцій чи подорожей

.... жити у своєї бабці, в глушині, коли нема інтернету і можна багато гуляти і читати

... слухати і бути свідком романтичних історій зі щасливим кінцем

... свою сестру, яка завжди до мене терпляча, вірить у мене і знаю, що перша людина, яка прийде на допомогу у будь-яку хвилину

... переглядати тематичні фотографії, коли пишеш ключове слово і видає сотні фотографій і неможливо вибрати яка мені подобається

.... коли вранці не треба нікуди поспішати і можна з вимитою головою працювати

....бути собою і казати те, у що вірю

.... робити справу, яка приносить задоволення і відчувати impact

..... чути музику звідусіль, де би я не була і що би не робила

..... бути щасливою і приносити щастя комусь

... ходити з локалкою на пиво, багато говорити при цьому

... AIESEC в Івано-Франківську зі всіма моїми спогадами, проблемами, challenges, радостями - моє найрідніше місце на світі

.... читати "Тиждень" і дивитись новини

... їсти багато солодощів

Знаєте, що я зрозуміла?? - що у мене страшенна потреба бути любимою і оточувати себе увагою людей! І ще - я страшенно ревнива, бідний мій майбутній чоловік.

Розмова з однією людиною (тепер дуже важливою для мене) в неділю перевернула все з ніг на голову і слова, які почула, я ще ніколи ні від кого не чула. Тепер не знаю, що зі всім цим робити, як дивитись в очі, працювати, діяти - треба діяти!!!!

Я з жахом уявляю, що не можу і не хочу відпускати все, що зараз відбувається зі мною.
Перед від*їздом до Києва буде довгий-довгий пост зі сльозами про те, у що так вірю, вкладаю і не жалію ні на хвилинку. Про те, що підтверджує суть геніальної фрази: "Я люблю вас не за те,хто ви, а за те, хто я, коли я з вами".

My term as LCP has just 2 months to go. I'm at home now, and what to contribute into it, into members as much as i can. What can i say for now: this is so far the best life memory and i would like to experience it once more time. And i'm saying this not because i want to motivate someone or just because i need to say it all the time. This is already a part of my life which i don't want to finish and which i enjoy a lot.

I love it because of many things, which i want to put here:
1. i felt totally lost and feared at the beginning of the term after difficult elections
2. i faced family troubles a few times, which made me scared about my life and my family
3. it's difficult for me to stand peoples' retention in AIESEC - the thing when people change, and after some time you lose contact with them

* i learned how to be positive, open and straight-forward every day - without it you can't motivate people
I'm waking up every day with the thought of AIESEC in Ivano-Frankivsk, members, what are the positive changes that we can do

* i adore my EB team - especially the fact, that we're oriented on our LC, its weak sides and how can we change them.

* i'm thankful to each LC member, who are during my term as VP TM and LCP - my friends, teammates

* this wasn't for me a play, game or some ideal world that i could hear a lot of times - this was a real life, real people, real emotions, and real impact that i'm doing every day and i can see it in the eyes of people and their achievements

So, my new team experience will start soon. It's not easy to change, but i'll adopt. Before it i need to pass successfully my diploma ( need to work a lot!!!), put goals and principles for 1 year, jump with my LC for final achievements, and move to another life stage.

This video and film reminds me about my stay in Austria when i was 15 years. Remember me.
So happy that i found it and wish to sing with the same beautiful voice and wisdom.

Життя, з його явищами, подібне сновидінню, фантому, бульбашці, тіні, блиску роси або спалаху блискавки і уявляти його слід саме таким. Будда

Spring is in my heart

Spring is everywhere! We can feel it, see it, our mood is positive. I feel the same now. I'm in the mood of smiling, hugging, being open and telling the right words.

These days i'm thinking a lot about the essence of the experience that i got during this year. I'm sure there a lot of things that i'll discover in myself, for now i wanted to share THE ONE, very-very important for me: ability to be open to people and sincere. It was aquired with the help of my EB team, members, who became friends for me and who actually made that person who i'm now and whom i prefer to remain.

The spring is going to be difficult, because of many reasons. The main one, which i try to handle with the workload and being busy, is the feeling that i'll have to leave what became a treasure for me, the people, the places, even my university. I hope that memories will overcome the distances. I know this.

я - є!

Ось недавно попала мені до рук чергова книга моєї улюбленої авторки. Довго не могла відірвати погляду від такого життєствердного формулювання:

"... я знаю - нічого в житті не буває "просто так". Дощ проливається там, де його шалено чекають. А над кожною головою, навіть у маленьких містечках - сяє своя зірка. Часом вона не помітна за товстим, запилюженим склом або на темному горищі зі щільно припасованими дошками. І тоді здається, що життя лише гра в пацьорки.

Але нічого. Скло можна розбити! А дах - проломити власною головою. І вдихнути повітря на повні груди. Нехай навіть це буде єдиний ковток на все майбутнє життя! Важливо зробити його і, видихаючи, промовити: "Я - є!"

Ірен Роздобудько "Гра в пацьорки"

Завжди - завжди варто спробувати, рухатись, знову починати, падати і підніматись. Відкривати всі двері і стрибати у вікно. Тільки так можна наздогнати мрію, здобути внутрішню силу і подарувати цю мрію тим, які її також наздоганяють.