Who said it would be easy?!

Now i'm having so mixed feelings, not knowing if what i'm doing is right, hesitating and trying to handle everything. In such state i'm living now.

The thing i'm really scared about and that is stuck in my head is what if all my ideas that i have now will be smashed by daily activities? And ideas will be only ideas??? not realized? and everything will be going as earlier?
How to stay focused and straight-forward despite the mood of people, their unreadiness and in many cases unwish to bring fresh changes? How to keep perceiving and staying an example for people inspite everything that happens around you? How to make wise decisions? Can i learn it from you??? How not to lose something very precious? And what is that 'precious' for me? Can i define? My parents? My team? My LC? My friends? my study? myself?

What i really need now is time to dream and plan, to spend with my teammates, people from LC. Just to be with them. To celebrate Easter with my family. Just to be with them as well.


There's so much to be done. And the worst thing is that there's something that makes me put everything 'for later' in my mind. If this 'later' is now? Why am i waiting? For what? Later...let the transion ends. Later...let the term is over. Later...the exams are over. How to forget about such word?


Maybe you have the same?