We have a dream, you'll win tonight!

Tomorrow i'm going to the conference. In a strange role for me:) (later on i will regret of it, but this post is not about that)
A very special conference for AIESEC, for people who took a courage and are not afraid of anything, for the whole Ukraine, for people who are still hesitating what is their next destination. And that's all makes me so excited! Well results of elections can be easily predicted:), and that's good, coz it saves from gossiping, some unspoken thoghts, misundestandings.
I jst can't wait to see all of you, our lovely MC team, my friends and colleagues!

I love this song! It reminds me, that sweet holidays are on their way to me:)

Driving home for Christmas
Oh, I can't wait to see those faces
I'm driving home for Christmas, yea
Well I'm moving down that line
And it's been so long
But I will be there
I sing this song
To pass the time away
Driving in my car
Driving home for Christmas

It's gonna take some time
But I'll get there
Top to toe in tail-lights
Oh, I got red lights on the run
But soon there'll be a freeway
Get my feet on holy ground

So I sing for you
Though you can't hear me
When I get through
And feel you near me
I am driving home for Christmas
Driving home for Christmas
With a thousand memories

I take look at the driver next to me
He's just the same
Just the same

Top to toe in tail-lights
Oh, I got red lights on the run
I'm driving home for Christmas, yea
Get my feet on holy ground
So I sing for you
Though you can't hear me
When I get trough
And feel you near me
Driving in my car
Driving home for Christmas
Driving home for Christmas
With a thousand memories

People often ask me whether i regret of my acts, decisions, steps. Well, as each human being i regret some of them. I always start thinking what could be, if I had decided in favour this or that opportunity. So what i often think of:

- not prolonging my musician career (those 10 years of study at music school contributed to my self-organization and survival skills. I had a very strict teacher, who sometimes even beat her students on their fingers for the mistakes. I was among them:) I had a good opportunity to grow, but i refused in favour of 'lazy life' in regular school

-not entering university out of my town and getting out of the family comfort zone

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There are still 'habits' in me, that i strongly disgust and try to get rid of them:

-not following my heart, but going in what-people-say-might-be-good-for-me way

-for having met so many interesting and kind people in my life, and not keeping in touch with them. I was at many conferences, events, i finally have worked with a lot of great personalaties, but i forgot about them. I can only say 'hi' and ' how do you do' to them. Not more.

A magic thing AIESEC conference is. At least for me. During the latest i've realized a lot. The most important: i know what i want to be for next year. And this decision won't be changed. Thanks to people who showed me my another me, and for pointing my weaknesses as well.

Next week will be another very important conference. Especially for Tanya.
Oh, i will see all-all and speak with a lot of people,watch my freshes in act:), just be there!!!
Yrjjaaa

TEAMs

My team: EB 07-09:
-warm people
-friendly approach
-openess
-good results






My team: EB 08-09:
-great results
-sincere relationship
-constructivizm
-state of achieving

What will be my next team experience? What will my role in it? What shall i achieve?
follow your heart, keep your dreams, define for yourself, reach!

Ой, давно мене тут не було. Чесно кажучи, забула свій пароль:), щиро вірила, що зможу згадати його, і таки здійснилось:)))) Я знову тут
Ну що вам сказати, мої любі? Окрім того, що безвилазно вчуся і тружуся у рідному ЛК, маю ще час на дорогих мені людей та книги (знову взялась за "Алхіміка", вона здається геть новою для мене зараз).
Дивно, минулого року я взагалі не мала часу на щось поза ту-ду-лістом. Була більш зосередженою, рішучою та впертішою. Тепер перетворилась на страшенного емпата, забуваю про все важливе на світі і геть не маю порядку ні в чому. При цьому появились відкритість, чесність, щирість, чому я рада надзвичайно. І ще стала демократичнішою, та відчуваю дуже часто, як втрачаю контроль над ситуацією. Дякую людям, які мені відкрили очі на це все.
пе.ес не думайте, що я втратила мотивацію чи щось інше, я просто все хотіла викласти для свого ж обдумування та внутрішніх змін. Вони мені ще пригодяться:)

Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and relatives will. Stay in touch.

Thank you for being in my heart

It's so good to find places that matter

Today i got a message in my inbox. It remained me about the post i wanted to have here:

''Places matter. Where you are determines how you feel. The environments you choose to work/play/live in are powerful influencers of your emotions. Great environments inspire and energize. Poor environments diminish''

I was in a place which now matters for me very much. An ordinary functional meeting which i thought would be about sessions, numbers and again sessions. I'm happy that i was wrong about it. Days of intense learning and discoverings, conversations and smiles and singing...:)

Here are posts that were at our forum after fm:

''Hi guys (* relevant)!

Sorry.I'm not constructive.Thanx for an amazing FM. We managed to know new VPs and our lovely NST. We create brand of TeaM (corpus mira).

We started T.Planning to reach 925 goal))

Thanx for your sharing, inspiration and proactivity.

Our Revolution will rock @world!!!!!!''

Lyuba Shlapay

''I decided to write something today in the morning, but Lyuba was faster:). I realized that I haven’t even thanked Katya, Kovi and Morga for an amazing conference. It was amazing in a very special way. I just can’t find right words how to describe it. Just believe me that I treasured each moment of our sessions, planning, informal agenda and conversations.

Thank you very much for preparation, friendly approach and our special spirit.

Wish us all good luck and great TM experience with our talents!''

Before it we had our local conference. One more place that matters to me. I regret that haven't written here my feelings after it.
A very strange conference. No, i''m very satisfied with the level of our preparation and general mood of delegates. But it was so difficult for me. Personally. Change of teams, people, general mood in LC - all these made me feel a stranger there. Knowing that i'm gonna lose a part of myself with Tanya, Yura, Yulya, Natka, Afik...
And the thing that frustrated me there and does now, is that i'm not sure what i'm going to do after this year. I realized, that hadn't a clear picture what was my place of destination for the next year. So I rushed into my room and started to cry, recollecting everything i had during my term. And being so weak about my future.

Even now i can't let these feelings fly away...
But what i know that i have a blank page opened before me. And i'm a painter. At the end it will show me what is my next step.

Hugs to all people who read this blog
:)